Back to the Grind

Well, after a break from working.... I have to go back tomorrow. Sigh. I can't complain though since I have Friday off and that means another long weekend. We're all looking forward to Dad completing his much-anticipated bike ride. He'll leave the Applebee's in Hartsville on Friday at 1:00 pm and ride 40 miles to McLeod Regional Hospital in Florence. He's been working and training hard and it will be so much fun to see him complete something for which he's worked so hard.

A couple of days ago, Beth tagged me. While I'm not positive, I think it means I'm supposed to blog about the ten things I love most about my husband, so here we go in no particular order.

1. Matt strives to be and enjoys being the spiritual leader in our home. He is an amazing leader and someone from whom I can always ask advice knowing I'll get a Godly response.
2. Matt has a great moral ethic. He works hard and takes pride in his work, always trying to please those in charge and manage to keep the customer happy.
3. I absolutely love watching Matt lead worship on Sunday mornings at church. He spends time on Saturday evenings preparing so that we sing the songs the Holy Spirit impresses on his heart. Worship is always a wonderful experience and he gets to lead us before the throne of God.
4. You may or may not know that I think milk is the greatest beverage in the world. I love it when, without ever asking, Matt brings me a tall cold glass of milk. It tells me that he pays attention to the little things and I love that.
5. When Matt and I are facing a difficult situation or have to make important situations, I love it when he looks at me and says "Crystal lets pray."
6. I love that Matt takes pride in his appearance and if you know Matt well, in the way he smells. I love that I know "his smell." One of our couples devotion books asks if you think you could pick out your spouse by smell if you were blindfolded. I love that with no doubts at all, I know I could pick him out by smell. I love it when I go to bed and I can snuggle against him or his pillow and smell him. Something about it just makes me feel safe and lets me know he is near.
7. I love that Matt has passion. He has dreams and is passionate about his golf game. He wants to play professionaly and whether he ever reaches that dream or not, I admire him for having a dream and working to pursue it.
8. I love that even when Matt and I have had some really... really rough times in the last eight years, Matt has been steadfast and strong and always been a constant.
9. I love to watch Matt when his "fellas" come over to play ball on the playstation. They are so funny together and they have so much fun like kids.
10. I love that Matt is a Godly man. I know that I've said I admire him for being the spiritual leader in our home, but I also love that outside of our home, in every realm of life, Matt strives to be a Godly man.

Well, there ya go.

For reasons unknown to us here on this earth, God decided our little one would be better off with Him. He allowed us the joy of the thought of becoming parents and we pray He will bless us again with that joy someday. In the meantime, we grieve over one who we were rather attached to though we never saw it or heard its little heart beat. We appreciate your prayers.

cb

Waiting

So, I woke up yesterday morning and found myself absolutely terrified. I had some bleeding which no pregnant woman wants to see. I called the doctor's on call service and they told me to be at the office when it opened. I had bloodwork done and an ultrasound. It looks like my uterine wall is still thick which is a good thing. I go back tomorrow for more bloodwork and then go on Friday for the results of my bloodwork. I'm spending the rest of the week just laying around at home not doing much of anything. Just say some prayers for our little one. Thanks.

Mmmmmm

Being pregnant does such weird things to your body. It causes you to be moody, irritable, causes you to be hot one minute and freezing the next, certain smells make you want to barf, etc. The strangest thing to me is the food cravings. Things I used to love I don't even want near me and right now I think I could eat pizza morning, noon, and night. Weird.

So tired.

Well, Me, Nacho, Oreo, Peanut, and Pixie are all watching Scooby-Doo and laying around. I'm not sleeping well at night so I got a little extra rest this morning. I haven't been sick the last few days but Dr. Giep was rather confident that my morning sickness wouldn't really start up til next week. I guess we'll wait and see. I do stay incredibly tired all the time and there are several foods that absolutely gross me out.

I have one week or work and then next week I only work Tuesday-Thursday. Mom and I get to go home Thursday evening to see dad. He'll do his bike ride on Friday morning. That should be exciting.

I don't understand how anyone can dream of abortion. I'm only five weeks and one day and I'm already rather attached to my little baby. I talk to the baby and I am constantly worried that things are developing propertly.

Well, enough for now.

cb

Long overdue

I know. I'm such a slacker. It has been so long since an update so I'll try to fill you in on what's going on in the Brewer house.

Last time I wrote much was the weekend mom and dad came to visit. Well, since then... mom transferred to the same Wal-Mart that Matt works at. She gets to decorate cakes full-time and loves it. She's really enjoying the atmosphere and the people she works with. She's living with us in our guest room downstairs which has been nice and she helps us out so much with cleaning and preparing dinner and taking care of the animals. Dad stayed behind in Hartsville and is waiting patiently to sell the house. We're hoping it sells real soon.

Things are going well for Matt at work as well.

I'm still at my job until the end of June and then I'll be released. I haven't found many leads in the form of jobs but I'm sure God will provide one in His timing.

When Mom moved in, so did Peanut. Peanut is a miniature dachshund who is really cute but ALL puppy. She seems to really like black flip flops. haha Oreo liked her right away. It took Nacho some time to warm up to her and even longer for Pixie but slowly everyone is getting along better.

Well, our big news this weekend is that Matt and i are going to be parents. We had our first doctor's appointment yesterday. I'm only four weeks along so he wouldn't give us a definite due date but it should be around January 17th. I go back on June 19th and at that point we'll be able to see the baby on ultrasound and hear the heartbeat. Its all very exciting but overwhelming as well. Because of my polycystic ovarian syndrome, I am at a higher risk for miscarriage so I need to take some extra medicines and take extra caution so that I don't get hurt. Easier said than done since I'm such a clutz. Mom is making sure to wait on my hand and foot. :-P

All of the grandparents are very excited and I can't wait to see all of them with their first grandchild.

Dad's bike ride is coming up on May 30th. He's gonna ride 43 miles from Hartsville to Florence to raise money for the Children's Miracle Network.

Well, I'll write more later. I'll get myself back in the habit of writing again.

later.
cb

have news... will post it soon. promise.